One car (which my husband takes to work everyday) + 3 kids (one who is 3 months old) + sleep depravity + cold winter weather = One tired stir-crazy cabin-fever Mama
I've been in search of a project lately. One that I can do while in a constant zombie-like state so I don't lose my mind. Nothing big that I will have a complete melt-down if I don't finish in a sitting because I am summoned to fill another sippy cup. Something that I can keep my hands busy with-- that has nothing to do with folding laundry or changing diapers. Just something I can look back at and see where my time went. Something that won't un-do itself. Or need to be redone. Like folding laundry. Or changing diapers. Or filling sippy cups.
I'm in need of some serious craft therapy.
Lucky for me, I am the daughter of the Queen of Craft and All-Things-Awesome. One trip over to the homestead and my head is a-buzz with excitement with ideas of how to keep my hands from being idle, even when my mind and body are weary.
Nothing stirs the soul like a good dose of creativity.
Its New Years Eve and my hands are single-minded, maybe for the first time in months. As the ball is dropping, I'm on my belly on my hardwood floor taking photographs of my little gems. The air smells like Dreft and wet lanolin and the fire is warm on my face and my fingers are wrinkled and pruny from an hour of wet-felting 107 little balls of wooly wonderment.
One. hundred. and seven.
There's something about a large number with 3 digits that makes me feel accomplished.
The creative process feels so similar to gestation.
The rose parade comes on, and I'm still turning bits of wool into orbs of color. I dig out and empty my sewing box and separate the balls into felted and soon-to-be-felted piles.
They are random entities that beg to be organized and put in their proper places.
They are each single colors that ache for companions to become patterns.
They are possibilities. And time.
It is a Sunday evening and my babies are asleep and I'm mourning the loss of Matthew along with Lady Mary and I'm drowning my sorrow into bits of wool. Wrapping and wrapping and wrapping. And tossing them into the pile. The pile. The pile. And I think of how time passes-- how sometimes you have something to show for it, and sometimes you don't and how both are desperately needed. I think how my time has manifested itself into wool felted balls and how great and monumental that feels.
My fingers start to have a memory, and my mind starts to stir again, and that tired achey always-stay-at-home-mama feeling doesn't feel so heavy.
I thread a needle and arrange them into patterns. I hang them. I take pictures. And my home becomes a haven filled with colored time on walls, strung up on white pearl cotton.
And I change diapers. And I fold laundry. And I fill sippy cups. And I look at strings of wool-felted balls hung in rows and smile. And I think how the number 3 makes me feel so accomplished.